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Old Fandom’s never die: Babylon 5 UK Event Announced officially

I was going to do a vlog. but I decided my ugly mug is uglier than usual this weekend so:

Old Fandom’s never die:

My first ever Starfury, after getting annoyed at Star Wars fans and challenging someone to Den'Sha, only for them to actually know what it was. Floored me! I literally could not say a word.
Of course at the time I didn't know Starfury started with b5 cons, (yes I’m the idiot who didn't make the connection with the name ha bloody ha)

I started conventions at the wrong time for so many reasons, not least the B5 reasons...call it age, call it location, call it genrally living in the arse end of nowhere.
I literally felt like the only geek in the whole village, and got bullied like it too. High school was no different, small town small minds you know the song.
Only one person can vouch for how completely bowled over I was in my first week at college, finding out I wasn't the only sci-fi geek for miles, and finding that fact through Babylon 5. As well as making an amazing friend.

And now FCD... ask for me end of February and you will find me a grave man...because i will b dead from being surrounded by B5 fans. I am going if it takes every coin I have!
And the timing is perfect for other reasons but I don't want to bring myself down, those who know, know.

So. Anyway. B5 ... the show that made me realise that maybe, just maybe. England actually made some good actors.
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Pancon 2

Ok first - 😭 Waaa I don’t have any Nicola pictures, my camera started misbehaving in panel and didn’t save anything after Matts sunday panel.

I wanna write a review but my weekend was mostly racing around for photos.

so...some highlights -

The Owl:
after panicking i looked ridiculous and was embarrasing myself and Dom (who the costume was obv based on)  the guests all seemed to love it.
Dom joked “it’s better than mine” which, since I know the detail and care taken with his I know is rot.
Matt looked up in autos and jumped "thats something to look up to."
Luke apparently saw me in his auto cue and jumped out of his skin.
It needs a few tweeks before I can do it again but it won’t be the last time you guys see Liliths Demon Senchel.

Matt thinks we’ve lost Dom to being ‘Americanised’
Chai doesn’t understand the boundaries of spoilering,
They all support Isaiah, but i can’t remember the hashtags we’re supposed to throw around to prove it lol,
Nicola seems to love telling AVS stories, and is apparently (note the loud MAYBE here) somewhere in The Boys season 2.
Jade is awesome..thats all that really needs to be said there. but he is ‘planning a tour’ which includes the uk somewhere down the line.
Kat says the crossover is intense but amazing,
Luke wishes he could have an Iratze especially for going out drinking with Dom.

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"Atque in perpetuum frater ave atque vale" My best friend went to sleep this weekend...

"And forever, brother, hail and farewell."

The post is a memoriam for my best friend, by angel given solace..my doggie. who went to sleep at aprox 11:01am on the 2nd of March 2019. 8 years after coming into my life as a constant companion.

so. In memoriam

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2018 Questionnaire

1. What did you do in 2018 that you’d never done before?
Went to a convention in Europe. The Italian Institute, it was an experience both in Europe and European conventions.

I observed my Parabatai facing her fears for charity

2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't do resolutions tbh . my life very rarley changes so theres no much point

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
not this year, far as I'm aware.

4. Did anyone close to you die?

5. What countries did you visit?
Brussels (though just the airport lol) Italy, and Wales

6. What would you like to have in 2019 that you lacked in 2018?.
news on the actual likely hood of saving Shadowhunters

7. What dates from 2018 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
TIIC2 in June
Steam Powered Giraffe's 'last uk gig for the forseeable' in August
Within Temptation in November.
Wales Comic Con and Pandemonium in December

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
meeting David Castro, Jade Hassoune, Dom Sherwood, Matt Daddario, Alan Van Sprang and Nicola Correia-Damude,

9. What was your biggest failure?
still being jobless. screwing once in a lifetime photoshoots up , missing gigs, the usual

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
nothing new no. flu kicked my arse in december like it always does.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
2 parabatai photoshoots. and 2 photoshoots with Jade Hassoune

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
the Shadowhunters cast.
Ally Gothgerbil
Anthony Rapp
Jaime Milner

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depresssed?
yeah well.. thats a list too long to write. but right at the top is Freeflop who don't know a good thing when they have it.

14. Where did most of your money go?

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Italian Institute 2, Wales Comic Con 2, Destination Star Trek, Pandemonium

16. What song will always remind you of 2018?
Everything by Lifehouse. David Castro sung it at TIIC2 and said in his mind it was dedicated to Raphaels sister Rosa.

also Blackbird by Alberto Rosende and Jade Hassoune: the alpha of our little pack lives in George Harrisons old house and we were there when they boys did a live, and from the second Alberto played the first chord the temperature plummited. it was eerie as hells.
Heather and me told Alberto and Jade when we met them at MCM and they loved it, said it was really creepy and gave them goosebumps, then when we saw Jade recently at Pandemonium, Ally was with is (the alpha of our pack, as if you didn't already know that) and he remembered the story and told her that him and Alberto had been talking about it.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? meh.
b) thinner or fatter? meh.
c) richer or poorer? poorer

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
trips to London, hanging out with the ghouls, gigs. the usual

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
being broke.

20. How did you spend Christmas?
I always do this questionaire before christmas, but its never very different. just another day, nothing special.
our 'yule' is more special. its a few days somewhere in december where my little pack get together and celebrate the fact its been 9 years since we met each other (bit more since me and Ally met but sentiments the same) and we exchange gifts and things.
21. What was your favourite month of 2018?
June or December

22. Did you fall in love in 2018? & 23. How many one-night stands?
I don't know why I leave this question in from year to year, the answers never gonna change. I AM A SEX REPULSED ARMONATIC ASEXUAL I DON'T SLEEP AROUND AND I DON'T FALL IN LOVE.

24. What was your favourite TV programme?

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
Oh yeah. best not to list though. leave it to the imagination

26. What was the best book you read?
Competance by Gail Carriger

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Lifehouse thanks to David Castro

28. What did you want and get?
To finally meet members of the Shadowcast
To finally see Within Temptation live.
for my little familliar to still be with me. for now.

29. What did you want and not get?
hmm.. to meet Alexander Siddig and Karl Urban when I had the chance due to funds

30. What was your favourite film of this year?
Fantastic Beasts and Where to find them 2 the crimes of Grindlwald.
and Aquaman, though i've not seen that yet 'officially'

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
birthdays next week, i'll be 34 and i think i'll be doing exactly what i'm doing now, sat at a computer rp'ing and dying of flu.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Shadowhunters being renewed.
Jesse Rath being announced for a con I can actually attend.
Jon Con coming back to the Uk for..something.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2018?

34. What kept you sane?
Shadowhunters. Killjoys, Torchwood. my familliar and my pack. you know. the usual.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
see 22. but if we're talking platonically it somewhere between Anthony Rapp, Alan Van Sprang, Dom Sherwood and Jade Hassoune

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
I stay out of that sh*t pile as much as I can. thats my parents thing

37. Who did you miss?
not to be odd..but Chester Bennington. this year has totaly been bare without him, the music scene is sorley lacking.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
"Find me here, and speak to me
I want to feel you, I need to hear you
You are the light that's leading me to the place
Where I find peace again

And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this"
Everything by Lifehouse

41. sum your __2018 up in pictures (IN NO ORDER)

this will be in a future post as i'm still collecting pics and whittling them down
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Ultimates 3 in brief

Started with a trip to Angel Korean and Chinese resteraunt on  Hanover St by the coach station.
then me and Heather watched Holy Grail while Ally begun her packing.

we didn’t make registration the next day. but we got checked in, and it tured out our room was right near the main hall so. despite Ally having to face the creaking old elevator of doom sounds. we made the party in good time. I as ‘alternative Harriet the spy’ and ally as an operative of the Federations Section 31.

turns out I can do at least one foot based condance, even if i have had to edit a section for vanities sake.
The next day we registered and got our stewarding duties, I managed to ask Jeremy a question, to which he responded (avoiding spoilers) that Winn and Brainys relationship is a blooming/ongoing thing. and he’d love a solo storyline outside the doomed romances and exploding flying monkeys,
I can’t remember how or why but Florina and Chyler comented on something I was holding, called it a goat and i realised i was carrying my friends new mascot. a Drama Lama I’d named Sean because of its expression reminding me of the one the Starfury Allfather frequently gives me. i explained the name and what it was, after saying vehimently that it was not mine and i’d forgot i was carrying it and handing it back to Ally who was sat at the edge of the row next to me. not the first time i’ve wound up being called out because of her plushies :D
after the Supergirl talk we were on duty and due to me being a fan and potentially bais or something Ally got put on the door of the Sanvers meet and i was left on the door of the talks. it went smooth enough. day door duty on the main hall isn’t usually very interesting.
after the talks we went to get something from the local shop i was calling the piggly wiggly because I was trying to work on my impression of brainy for if anyone recognised me that night.
going blue for a convention was a first for me, and while it didn’t completly fit Quarls skin colour it was close enough..I was close enough (thanks to Kree the assasin of make up Ally) to have a picture later liked by the man behind Brainy, Jesse Wrath himself.
Ally went as Sinara a Kree assasin 1 of 3 (also blue).
I was the only Brainy, and the only Legionaire, I did later pose an idea o cosplay Mon-El but was suggested to stick to brainy as he was more liked lol.
watching a member of the Kree condance is an experience. i can tell you.

we called it a night a lot earlier than we usually would, mainly to remove blue (i had a photoshoot the next day)

the next day I scrubbed myself raw a 2nd time just to be on the safeside and went down to have a photo taken with Jeremy Jordan, my original idea being to show the Asexual flag (which you can see in the picture but i’m not waving i) but he distracte me by commenting that he was Hufflepuff too as i was wearing my house shirt rather than my original planed ‘human’ brainy cosplay.
I went from the photos to autos and then into the talks where I asked Willa Holland what kind of reason she would like the writers to use for Roy coming back to Arrow next season without Thea. she said she wanted something good, like he’d seen her safe then went back to keep an eye on the family.

we went on duty during the final talks and i tested the reach of my new Camera’s zoom.

Closing ceremony was almost on time, and every guest made a hint to Sean to bring them back next year when Ultimates moves to Birmingham, and then the con was over bar the party.
as ally and I had checked out we didn’t have the ability to crash out in our rooms or go change, however ally managed a quick change somewhere and reappeared at the party around the same time as some of the guests returned to dance, dressed as Epona the celtic goddes of the hunt. and played shoot the plastic cup pyramid with a girl dressed as Arrow. the night went on with the usual odd dances and condances (and Billy Talents Fallen Leaves)
For three nights i’d been requesting a Bon Jovi song that, while it was usually played at the cons I didn’t always pay attention to not being a fan of the band, but it was relevant to me this weekend due to Bon Jovi being one of the 21st century things Mon-El taught his team about in the future, and Imra having quoted the lyrics to him when he was refusing to let them help the present day heroes “you live for the fight when thats all that you’ve got.” and when it played on sunday I tweeted “3 times, 3 times a song i don’t like for a girl I do. saturn girl forever.” but it didn’t send (hence why i’m mentioning it here)
we Gave Clare and Adam a lift to their hotels after the Survivors photo and then headed off out of blackpool for the last time (after a con) stopping long enough to get a starbucks which i think i left clap cold on the shelf of Allys spare room as i crashed the second we got in and had to go home pretty soon after waking up. (after falling asleep a few extra times sat that morning lol)
things of note this convention:
Sean was nice to me. this wierded me out no end. as while proffsionally he’s close to being a gentleman. personally i usually get at least one little snark from him regarding my dedication to one of my fandoms (either Shadowhunters or Twilight)
AND I managed to get a stable photo of him, which again is bloody rare.
The last two cons have fallen on or around Allys birthday, with last years marking her 50th, so Heather and I decided to start Allys Birthday on the friday, presenting her with 18 cupcakes, and I presented her with one peice of her Birthday present a  Jessica Jones Q-Fig for her to get signed by Krysten Ritter who was attending the convention. the next parts we’re thinking will have to wait till actually after her birthday, depends on timing :D
Speaking of my Parabatai - Heather didn’t come this time round, she decided to watch the demon ally keeps in her house instead and save her energies for Enchanted. her absence was remarked upon which is why I am mentioning it here :D
All in all:
as always an excellent convention, sad its the last at Blackpool. but I do love the Hilton :D
Tarsanah performed excelently even if she did have afew freezing moments as the batteries died.
Ultimates 3 Photos, review and stewardphotos all posted in various places. just gotta wait for the Survivors photo to go up and this conventions in the bag.
Next Starfury: Enchanted in June
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